Sitting in TUC (fondly Tucky)

You know like the Tucan?? Tucky the Tucan?? :)
Anyway so I was sitting in TUC doing my Chem hw and while there i saw at least 8 of the guys from Cru (including him) and it got me thinking (which is a dangerous thing). I don't understand why the guys in Cru are all so close...well that's not exactly true, I do understand that, what I don't get is why the girls aren't as well. Even the male leaders are super close with the guys. I don't know if it's because we really only have one female leader (who I personally have only ever really talked to once) or it's just that their are too many girls for all of us to be really personal with each other. I've always (the past ten years) had a best friend and I know I could probably tell her anything that's not how we work and I'm okay with that because there are others that I talk to, I know that sounds really weird but it's just the way we work. So like I was saying, The guys are all super close (well except maybe one or two but there are always exceptions) and I find it amazing that all three male leaders were in TUC and each was talking/counseling a student. I know people are going to get mad when I say this but my blog I'm going to say it anyway I think the female leader needs to reach out more. Sure, our student female leaders and upperclassmen in general, do a pretty good job of trying to be there for the younger students but they have classes and jobs and their own lives to deal with, not that our staff don't have their own lives but it's their job to reach out to us, isn't it? Sure, it works both ways I could ask to talk to her but it'd be nice to be asked, to have an adult (someone older than 22) ask how I am, what's on my mind, or even if i just want to talk. Yes, my blog has been great for getting my thoughts out and kind of let's me let people know how I am and I probably wouldn't really open up to her anyway because I don't know her all that well but it seems to me she doesn't reach out to anyone outside of the "in" crowd girls and I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. Sure it'd be hard to meet with all of us even once a month let alone once a week but no one's asking her to, I'm just saying maybe every now and then ask if someone needs someone to talk to or try to get the older girls to get more involved. J has been amazing this last year and a half, I can 100% say if not for  her I wouldn't still be at UC. She's an amazing friend and a great listner, she takes time to talk to me and trys to make me think about why I think the stuff I do, but like I said she has her own problems and classes and M, although she tries to make time for me, she's just busy. As well as she knows I'm always here for her but what happens when I need someone else to talk to or J is simply too busy, then there is maybe one or two other people I talk to but again they are busy with school and other stuff to, it isn't their job to talk to me. If you were to ask me if I have friends in cincy I'd say yeah, a ton but if you ask me if I have any close friends I'd say 3, MAYBE 4; while that's a lot for some people, one is soo busy planning their future they don't realize how much talking about it hurts me, damn I'm gonna miss him :'( the other two have super stressful school schedules, and the other one, well they're great but they've got one heck of a social calendar...which is strange considering they consider themselves antisocial. But I digress I guess I just wish the girls in Cru were closer and the female staff was better at reaching out. Confront me about it and I'll deny I typed anything.