Home

I come home about once a month, it's not that I try to or even that I plan it that way, it just seems to happen, I've gotten every thing I came home for, even got to celebrate my Mom's birthday with her. What I wasn't expecting though was for her to go out the night I got home or tonight. I guess I kinda figured she'd want to spend some time with me. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I get homesick or even that I'd have spent hours on end just sitting, talking with her; our relationship has never been like that. She watched part of the men's basketball game with me and took me to get food for school but we haven't eaten a meal together since I got home and I was hoping to get the chance to talk to her a little more about Australia but that hasn't happened and probably won't. I'm 19 years-old, technically an adult but she's still my mom and I'm still her baby. I never expect their lives to stop just because I come home but seriously her birthday was part of the reason I came home, work with me here woman. Every time I come home it seems like something has changed, like I'm more of a visitor (unless they want me to do something...dishes or getting wood) than a member of the household. I can't imagine what it'll be like when I get back from Australia, which my mom seems to be taking a lot more serious than my dad who keeps saying 'If", that is really bugging me. He's the one who is always like your ___ years-old you can do what you want but he just doesn't seem very supportive about all this.
I have begun finding things to help with the financials and after I get all of that done, I need to figure out where I'm going to live when I get back. Most importantly right now though is keeping my GPA up and actually learning things. I need to find a chem tutor, I think I'll be okay in bio, math, Spanish, and lab; heard a girl in bio on Friday say that she would be perfectly happy just taking lecture and never having another lab, I almost laughed out loud. I've taken all 3 freshman labs and believe me bio lab is nothing, I'd rather take lab.
Coming home after it's snowed has also reminded me how bad our central heating sucks, I don't think it's as bad as the Marshal house but it's definitely not my dorm room, Australia in November will be nice :)