It has been almost 7 months and tonight (this morning) feels like a good time to reflect on those months.
Sitting here in another new apartment, that is again only temporary, has me thinking how the last year of my life nothing has been permanent. This time last year I was in Defiance working at a summer camp that I knew I would not be returning to the next summer. I was being nice to a guy I knew I was only being a friend to because he's the only one who was siding with me but would never have talked to anywhere else. I had signed a lease for an apartment that was temporary with a girl that I was never truly friends with because it meant I didn't have to live alone but I thought I could be civil with, until it was time to find somewhere new.
This time last year I was still pining over a guy who only ever saw our relationship as a short term thing. I had changed my major and dream simply to have something to tell people when they asked what I wanted to do after I graduated, until I figure out what I really want to do. August came J & M tied the knot and our friendship hasn't been the same since, then came another round of classes & classmates that would be friends until spring semester started. A job was offered but quickly faded when not enough customers were coming in. Spring came and more new temporary people entered into my life. Warm days took their sweet time getting here but they got here and I was temporarily disabled, then classes ended. A new job came along and before school starts I hope this experiment in stupid people testing my patience ends and I find something better and more permanent.
The only new thing that has entered my life in the last year that has been constant has been my boo, A. The last 5 & 1/2 months he has been my rock. Without him I truly do not know where I'd be. He is everything I need and his constant presence is the one thing that helps me get through everything. I hope that never changes. He is my constant. <3
