Spring Break

Well it's Saturday of spring break and as always I enjoy being out of school for a week, coming home, and hanging with my best friend but if we were required to stay in Cincy during break I'm absolutely certain that I'd have had a more adventurous break just because I've built a great community down there. My sister and I saw a movie on Tuesday and got my passport on Monday, so it isn't like I just sat around all break but I didn't do anything majorly exciting. Sure, going to winter jam last Saturday was fun...after we got things straightened out, but I still wish I'd been able to go somewhere and do something, maybe just to Young's or something like that. It has been nice being able to cuddle with my pup and hang with my best friend. Even now it's nice sitting on my porch in our glider typing this out but I miss my friends. I had friends in high school but I barely talk to any of them now and they don't talk to me either. Cincy is more fun, but home is...home. I love being able to lie in my bed and have my parents buy me dinner every night or offer to make me something it's nice. I like knowing my way around and being able to give directions, I like knowing where people are talking about and being known by people. I enjoy the adventure that getting lost brings but I like being able to say you need to turn left here or right up there. I just wish I could combine the two. I want to take a walk with Him around the block and have a picnic in the grass by the elementary school with all my friends. I want M&J to meet Britt. I want to show S what I mean by corn fields in every direction. At the same time, I want to wander campus with Britt showing her everything I've described and telling her about UC.

I'm going to try to stay in Cincy until June, that's only 2 and a 1/2 months but still, it will give the family a taste of what it'll be like in the fall. I'm going to miss walking Shiloh as it gets warmer (he needs it too), walking down the middle of the street with no fear of being hit, listing to the birds sing, seeing the dogwoods bloom (it's great to not have allergies), sitting on the porch in early August just watching the sunset, my niece's first birthday, Shiloh turning 11. The planes flying over all summer long. The memorial day parade, the leaves changing colors, Fall Get Away and possibly Indy CC, possibly my big sister turning 25, My mom and dad's 27th wedding anniversary. While in Cincy, I also miss not having to lock my bedroom door anytime I go somewhere. There's a lot of things I could list but I'll stop. I want this sooo bad, Australia's a dream of mine and it being so close to coming true it's making me realize how much I'm going to miss at home. I'm also going to miss football and volleyball season and that stinks but it's nothing compared to my family. I guess that's all for now, just thought I'd update.

Spring Break has been nice, but I can't wait to get back to Cincy and see my friends, Wednesday and Thursday.

Exam Week

The end of my second year at UC is quickly approaching and it feels like there's never enough time for everything but I know a lot of stuff I need to do I have to do at home, which sucks because it isn't always convenient to go home. I've looked into a lot for Australia, tons of scholarship applications have been submitted, visa application has been looked into, still searching for a job, and  on top of all that I'm still trying to keep my GPA up and take care of this little health care billing misunderstanding. My father served 20 years so I would not have to worry about health insurance, stop being stupid Tri-care. I mostly want to go home just so I can say "take care of this for me, mommy." I'm not 20 yet, I figure that entitles me to have my parents do things for me still. I have been trying a lot harder to pay attention in class and do my best on exams but I really am just not good at taking tests, SOME schools consider that a disability, UC doesn't. Sure, I don't spend every second I should studying but I couldn't even if I had the motivation too. I just don't have the attention span to understand and focus for long periods of time. I need to work with things and be intrigued. My attention needs to be kept with wit and humor. Listening to a lecture and taking notes just isn't a good way for me to learn, I know that and have for years but it's the only way they offer bio, chem, physics, and biochem/organic chem. I have friends that keep asking me to promise them that I'll study more or more frequently but they don't seem to understand it isn't easy for me to study, especially by myself. I need to be able to explain to someone else and have their feedback. That is why I make remarks when my professors are lecturing it helps me remember what they are talking about. So you can imagine an entire week of tests is really hard for me; actually you probably can't imagine. You probably think I just need to get off facebook and stop playing games and just crack open my book and start studying, but that's because you don't understand. I don't have ADD, I can pay attention for extended periods of time but it has to be a subject I have at least a slight interest in, otherwise my brain doesn't see a reason why it needs to spend energy focusing when it could be doing something else.

This week hasn't been too bad, although I'm pretty sure that chem exam is going to turn out terribly, chem is not my subject. I think calc was an A though, Spanish tomorrow morning and then 25 hours of exam free life then bio and I'm free to enjoy baseball, women's basketball, and winter jam with S&D and M&J.

Future

So i was going to use this time to take a nap because I'm exhausted but lately I've been thinking about my future. My degree, going to vet school, Australia, just future in general. J keeps bringing up how her wedding seems to be getting farther and farther away and, every day seems like July is right around the corner. Last night I had the pleasure of sitting between two of my favorite guys on the planet. They both graduate this year, so their lives are focused on future plans and becoming part of the real world/working force. They won't be in school much longer and are in the process of making some major life choices. I think they are both doing a fairly good job too but personally the thought of making those life choices right now scares me to death. I'm afraid, I don't know what I'll do with my life if I don't get into vet school, I don't want a degree in bio because I have no clue what I would do with it if I don't get in. The thought of trying to figure out where I'll be living next year and trying to find a full time job to support myself, those are very scary thoughts. I know what you're thinking, well Sara it's a very good think you've got over two years to figure it out then, isn't it? And yeah it is but at the same time, I don't think I think about it all that much and I feel like I should be, this is my future I'm talking about. Sitting between them and thinking about all they have to be trying to figure out just kind of brought this to my attention. Along with J's consistent talk of her future. The very first thing that brought it up though was my chem grade, I thought I was going to have to drop chem, but I don't have any time to retake it unless I didn't go to Australia so that was going to drastically change my plans for next year. I won't have to retake it and I'm going to come out with a fairly decent grade so all that is okay but then the rest of the week happened and it just got me thinking.