The end of my second year at UC is quickly approaching and it feels like there's never enough time for everything but I know a lot of stuff I need to do I have to do at home, which sucks because it isn't always convenient to go home. I've looked into a lot for Australia, tons of scholarship applications have been submitted, visa application has been looked into, still searching for a job, and on top of all that I'm still trying to keep my GPA up and take care of this little health care billing misunderstanding. My father served 20 years so I would not have to worry about health insurance, stop being stupid Tri-care. I mostly want to go home just so I can say "take care of this for me, mommy." I'm not 20 yet, I figure that entitles me to have my parents do things for me still. I have been trying a lot harder to pay attention in class and do my best on exams but I really am just not good at taking tests, SOME schools consider that a disability, UC doesn't. Sure, I don't spend every second I should studying but I couldn't even if I had the motivation too. I just don't have the attention span to understand and focus for long periods of time. I need to work with things and be intrigued. My attention needs to be kept with wit and humor. Listening to a lecture and taking notes just isn't a good way for me to learn, I know that and have for years but it's the only way they offer bio, chem, physics, and biochem/organic chem. I have friends that keep asking me to promise them that I'll study more or more frequently but they don't seem to understand it isn't easy for me to study, especially by myself. I need to be able to explain to someone else and have their feedback. That is why I make remarks when my professors are lecturing it helps me remember what they are talking about. So you can imagine an entire week of tests is really hard for me; actually you probably can't imagine. You probably think I just need to get off facebook and stop playing games and just crack open my book and start studying, but that's because you don't understand. I don't have ADD, I can pay attention for extended periods of time but it has to be a subject I have at least a slight interest in, otherwise my brain doesn't see a reason why it needs to spend energy focusing when it could be doing something else.
This week hasn't been too bad, although I'm pretty sure that chem exam is going to turn out terribly, chem is not my subject. I think calc was an A though, Spanish tomorrow morning and then 25 hours of exam free life then bio and I'm free to enjoy baseball, women's basketball, and winter jam with S&D and M&J.
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