Almost every day Liz or Jody will post a blog entry from a woman who only got to be with her baby for 10 hours before God took her, and as I reflect back on this past week on how much I have hated my life, being alone and just generally feeling unloved, I realize I am loved beyond my wildest dreams.
I have some great friends, maybe not as many as I thought, before I left for Australia, but still the few I do have I know love and care about me, and I have my parents who would do almost anything for me. I should be so much more thankful than I am toward them, and as I was reminded yesterday after making an off-handed remark, I am looked up to and seen as a role-model by 5 fourth graders; I'm admired and a child's love is always true. My older sister and best friends are always there for me and my brother's in another country fighting so that I can continue to live in a country that lets freedom and not injustice stand.
So while I may be single and there are so many things I WANT in my life, fact is I'm alive and God has provided all that I NEED. My life was not cut short and clearly I have a purpose in His eyes. In His eyes I am wonderful, beautiful, and worthy of giving a chance. A chance to figure out this crazy thing called life, to go after my dreams, new and older, to make my mark on this world. And any guy on this planet who doesn't see that, isn't worth my time and shouldn't be taking my attention away from the things in my life that matter, however that doesn't mean I'm just going to forget him, he still means a lot to me and I hope we'll always be friends, he taught me too much to just toss him aside and that's why I love him (as a friend). My life could be so much worse. To quote Lee Greenwood "I thank my lucky stars to be livin' here today".
Now let's see how long I can keep up this positive mood.
Ps. If not for a very important couple, I'm about 90% sure I'd have lost hope in true love after last spring. Individually and together they have taught me a lot and inspire me to persevere in everything. Whether, it's her listening to me drag on and on about nonsensical things or it's him, just the look he gives her sometimes, it gives me hope that one day I find a man that loves me like he loves her or even if it’s the two of them unwittingly showing me that no matter what others think or what obstacles you face, if it's meant to be, it'll happen. They are truly an inspiration, I should thank them and give thanks for them heaps more. All in all I am blessed.
