The evils of drama

what do u do when the one thing u want is bringing up so much that u don't want (ie drama)? I thought coming to Australia would give me a chance to clear my head and straighten out my heart but I seem to have found myself tangled up in a mess of drama and the possibility of a relationship. It's so damn hard because I'm only here for 4 months but at the same time it's 4 MONTHS of a once in a lifetime opportunity why not experience some new things. So far I've tried quite a few things I wouldn't have back home but I don't know if a relationship should become part of that list. I like him I really do and he likes me too but there seems to be an awful lot of drama coming with w/e it is we are doing. From making a mentor (equivalent of an RA) super mad and thinking we were talking about her to some girl who liked him coming back and him having to tell her that he's with someone. I'm just not sure if 3 and 1/2 months (cuz the last 1/2 of that final month would be incredibly hard) of fun, happiness, and the excitement that comes with starting a new relationship (or so i've been told) would be worth all the drama and stress that's bound to arise within the next week. We have classes starting on Monday and that will be hard for both of us because I'm not familiar with their educational system and he's an engineering student so his classes are bound to be difficult. I would love nothing more than to be able to just curl up in his arms and see where this goes but all this drama is going to make it hard. Worst part is I know exactly how hard this is on him because we are incredibly similar. He thinks we laugh the same and i know we think the same because we both hate confrontation not because we cant stand up for ourselves, for me at least it's because it takes me forever to think of just the right way to phrase things. I would rather solve the problem than have a shouting match. It's even harder when the person confronting you 1) is doing it when the two of you were already trying to figure out wether or not to give a relationship a go and 2) is a person of semi-authority so you have to be extremely careful what you say. Uhg, so basically is it worth it?

Subject change

For weeks all that's been on my mind has been going to Australia and I've been doing an incredible job of keeping it off of thinking about everyone I'm leaving behind. Of course there's my bff, M&J , and my new gang but i can deal with not seeing them because i know they'll keep in touch. But there are two people I'm going to miss like crazy and I can't help but break down every time I think about it because one has been so busy with his new life that he can't even be bothered to reply to my fb messages or texts and I doubt we'll talk while I'm over there and it's even more doubtful I'll see him when I get back. Most of all though i'm gonna miss HIM. Yeah, i think i have feelings for someone else and the new guy is great but like i said he'll keep in touch but HE's just a busy guy. If i don't say something to HIM it's doubtful HE'll say something. I just...HE's just...well HE's HIM and if you saw HIM the way i do u'd get it. I'm gonna miss HIM so much and HE just doesn't get what he does to me. How much i like just being around HIM, HIS voice, the way HE flipped HIS hair when it was long and the way he always has a knit cap now. Damn!! I hate HIM so much for doing this to me but it's not really HIS fault. I'm gonna miss him. :'(