Fall Get Away 2011

I loved fall get away last year, it was amazing and it came just when i needed it the most, so u could imagine my anticipation for it this year when i figured out a way to go. WELL i sadly was disappointed, sure there were some fun times and all-in-all it was still a good weekend. However, i didn't connect with anyone the way i did last year and definitely did not feel His presence. It was nice to get away from campus, classes, and my roommates and to see the horses but i was hoping for soo much more. It's partly my fault but still. I was hoping to get to finally sit down and talk to Janie about everything that's been on my mind and heart, well that didn't happen, mainly cuz i never asked her if we could. I was also hoping id get to spend time with him and maybe even get the opportunity to talk to him and let him know how i feel. That didn't happen mostly because he was always doing something else the one time i could have asked him if we could talk there were too many other people around but we still had a nice moment...i thought it was nice. My biggest problem with this weekend was i just didn't feel like i belonged there. I kept thinking about Brittany wanting me to come home, the game next weekend, and how unfair/inconvenient it is that my computer is still broken. I had a nice chat with Micah at Wendy's on our way back to campus and that was probably one of the high lights of my weekend. I feel like nothing exactly went wrong but nothing was all that good too and i still kinda feel like i have no one i can tell all of this to because everyone is soo busy with their own problems and boyfriends and other things. Shelby was trying to get me to talk and if i really felt comfortable i could probably tell her all this but i don't feel ready to lay all of this on her. I really enjoyed the end of the bonfire though, it was nice standing around the fire with friends, enjoying the beautiful nature God put around us and watching the guys toss around hot coals. lol

Good Day

So i'm not a morning person, well not a Monday morning person but this Monday's been rather ok. I didn't really wanna get up this morning but once i did i was ok --- i wasn't tired. I understood most of bio and chem and even got the bio answer correct although the "smart" guy in our group didn't listen to me so we got it wrong. Then sometime between the beginning of chem and the beginning of bio it started raining but i don't change rooms so i missed it and it's been nice ever since. Math was a review for our test on Friday, so no hw this week cuz we're reviewing on wed. too, so that was also good. got a 60/60 on my chem hw 1st try. and now all i have to do tomorrow is my chem lab...which i already started and my bio hw which shouldn't be hard. then im meeting up w/ robin, which should be fun although im not sure what we're gonna do or where we're gonna do it, it'll be a nice break from routine. Today is Scotty's birthday, not exactly sure where i was going with that but just wanted to throw that in there. lol. I'm just in a really good mood, oh and t-minus 4 days til fall get away, it's about time too. but first that math test and i have a German test the Thursday before pitt, a bio test the Monday after and a chem test the wed. after but no class the Friday after!! so it should be a few good weeks. now if i can figure out what im doing wrong on my lab reports i'll be golden. Im really starting to believe cutting the guy drama out of my life was beneficial although there is still that one guy...but if u know me and i think u do by now, i could never stop liking guys entirely, im just not doing anything about it, im hoping God will help him to intervene when the time is right...any time now. :) lol maybe He (God) and i will talk about that this weekend.

Life's Like a Puzzle

Interesting title don't you think? Yeah, i thought so too, it just kind of came to me. So anyway on to my topic.
I've had a fairly great week, i think the worst part was probably finding out im not doing so well in Chem lab and I don't quite understand why. Anyway, so life being like a puzzle, things are just kind of falling into place. I've gotten a but load of money from UC and that will really help with Australia next year which im slowly but surely figuring things out for (so excited). I need to keep my grade up is my biggest concern. Cat's are having a great Saturday too, won football and volleyball and have seniors night for the women's soccer team tonight. There's also a volley ball game tomorrow too, that should be fun. I spent the night at Janie's, aka i got to spend sometime w/ Janie!! I've really missed that and then some time w/ her and Micah this morning, that was nice. Classes weren't bad either this week but i have a math test Friday of this next week but then Fall-get-away that night til Sunday and that will be GREAT!!, well at least i hope it will although im dreading the thought of Andy shaving his head, he just wont be andy w/o his hair; well he will be but he won't look like himself :(
My mom says my comp. should be fixed by wed and at some point this next week she'll be bringing it down. Oooo, another thing that was nice this week was, i've spent a lot of time with the RallyCats and that's been great, they may not be the best influences but they present a good opportunity to see just how well i can stick to my morals as well as getting out of my comfort zone and cheering on the teams is always fun. Plus i had dinner with them friday and i got to talk to (listen to) Kazia and Tiff a bit, which i always enjoy. Oh, weekend after fall-get-away im going to pitt with the RallyCats and it should be an interesting time cuz im probably one of the only RallyCats that hasn't seen the guys (or the girls) drunk and im not really a big fan of being around drunk people but i know the RallyCats so i think i'll be ok and besides the pitt game is history, its the last time UC & pitt will meet in Big East conference play, i always wanted to be a part of college history; 20 years from now i'll be able to look back and say "Hey, I was at that game" and hopefully say "it was so cool that we won!!" So the next two weeks should be fun!!

1st Month

So I've been meaning to type this since Thursday, as Thursday marked the end of my 1st month of my second year on campus, meaning that i've spent 10 months on campus and i feel ten is a good number. I've learned a lot in the past month, including some very difficult lessons in accepting what comes and being grateful for what i have rather than longing for what my friends have. So if u've read any other post or if u actually know me then u know, that i love animals and am single. two things i struggle with greatly, now u may wonder why is her love for animals something she struggles with? well being in Cincy there are only three animals u see a lot of, birds, squirrels and Lucy. sure there's the occasional dog and Leah has a bunny, but id really rather have an animal around daily, that would make me happy...kinda. You see most of my close friends have boyfriends, and i mean fairly serious bfs too. Don't get me wrong I love them, they are great guys, it's just hard being around couples all the time and last year i would have told u i enjoy being alone but that's not really true anymore sure i need time for myself but id really rather be with my friends than in my room or the library. However, i don't always want to hang with them because i feel like the 3rd wheel even though they try so hard not to let me feel that way. so itd be nice to have someone around that keeps me from feeling that way, like a best friend who is also single or better yet a bf. Last year i had a best friend well for a few months anyway and now she's super busy w/ school (i get that) and when she actually does have time to relax she's with him (i get that too). I realize he's been gone for the last 6 months and she still barely get's to see him as is but its still hard on me not having her around/as accessible as she was last year. I know she's trying and that she feels really bad for being so busy but it doesn't always feel like she is and i miss her. Don't get me wrong on this either her bf is an amazing guy, u can even ask her i think pretty highly of him so it's not like i don't like him, cuz i do i just wish she wasn't so busy. Whereas my very best friend's bf i don't like quite so much. I'm not even sure i like him at all. I mean i love that he loves her and that he's great with her but some of his values and some of the things he says, idk.
Anyway back to my lessons, I messed up last Wednesday and although i say it wasn't my fault truth is i know i could have done about a million things differently, but i also know that it's in the past and i can't change that, so i have to move on and forgive him no matter how much i think he was wrong. Being grateful actually ties in w/ that because although i don't have the job, i have so many other things in my life to be grateful for. I have the chance to go to Australia next fall and a great University giving me the education i need for vet school and many MANY more freedoms cuz i live in an amazing country and serve an amazing God who has truly blessed beyond all reason.

Your Fault

Stupid guy i thought was the vet. is actually her husband and he's just in charge of the business side of things. Anyway he sent me an e-mail at 10:25 this morning asking if i could come in at 12:30pm today, correct me if im wrong but isn't it common courtesy to let a person know at least 24 hours before an interview so that they can be properly prepared? Well yeah, so i told him i could be there but also explained that I might be late as i didn't get his e-mail until 25 mins before the interview and then i had to find a way there. So i get there and everything is going well, until i make one lil remark. The client asked me if his dog was handsome, i responded "yes, he is very handsome for a toy dog" simply meaning that in comparison to a dog of a different size say my dog he'd still be nice looking but no dog is as handsome as my boy. Anyway, i'll admit i shouldn't have said that. If u haven't caught on they don't want me. His reasons being i wasn't dressed appropriately, i was in the way, i was slouching, and i insulted a client. reason #1, i wasn't dressed appropriately because i did not have adequate time to change into something more interview appropriate although since i was also observing im not sure if business casual would have been appropriate for a vet clinic but i digress, given more time that would not have been an issue. #2 i was in the way, i was never given anything to do and was where he told me to be and i was doing what he told me to do, observe their receptionist, who by the way kept disappearing. #3 i was slouching, i was NOT slouching, i was leaning and there was absolutely no one in the office so sorry i can't sit up perfectly straight and do nothing for u all day. and #4 i already covered and the client didn't seem upset with me and he didn't say anything, neither did the receptionist. He also told me they'd tried this once before and the last girl just left one day and never came back, never told any of them why she was leaving or anything, well here's an idea because we're college students not robots, sometimes we're going to mess up, with out instruction we're not sure what to do and it'd be nice to not be so criticized, i mean seriously im only 19 and have absolutely no formal training as a receptionist so maybe you could have said, hey Sara why don't you do this or that, if they'd done that i guarantee that they'd keep more receptionists. So in conclusion, if they aren't going to give me any instruction and are going to get mad at me for doing what they tell me to do and being where they tell me to be, they don't deserve me. Biggest downer is they're the only vet clinic in Clifton.

Home

So I went home this weekend but my weekend started before that. so I was on my way back to my dorm room when i saw my roommate Ceara and she tells me that Na'kima (our RA) canceled our roommate meeting; u'd think this a no big deal right? No it was a huge deal cuz i could have left at 12:30 and gotten that much more time with my dog whom i LOVE and that would have meant the world to me not to mention i could have done my hw then instead of about 10 mins ago. But none of my roommates bothered to tell me or leave me a note, w/e. Anyway so i then called my sister and told her to come get me so my dad didn't have to come down during rush hour...aren't i nice?!? so she tells me she'll be down in an hour so i go watch some of the Battle for the Bat (students vs administration softball game) and who's on the students team but none other than my RA. as far as i know it was a volunteer thing so she shouldn't have volunteered knowing she had prior commitments. anyway so the students won and i left the game early to get my stuff ready and my sister gets lost on campus cuz she can't listen to her GPS. So i find her and we head home and w/o going into too much detail we had a fairly interesting but not at all surprising conversation(don't ask). anyway i get home and i met my uncle. Now that may sound weird and it is a weird thing to say but he's been out of the picture for the last 26 years so me being only 19 i've never met him, none of my siblings have. I don't consider a lot of my (extended) family, family but that's for various specific reasons, generally i don't because my thought is u can't turn ur back on ur family and still consider them family, i realize my theory is a lil hypocritical but since they did it first then it obviously that means they don't want to be part of the family so why should i consider them family. anyway then my high school lost their homecoming game and every game they've lost UC has lost, so im worried about next week. Anyway then Saturday my lovely sister helped me w/ my chem kinda and then couldn't explain my math but i should be ok. and today we went to church then came home and my "uncle" tried to tell me how to fix my computer although the way he was describing i've already done 2x to no avail, so he should just keep his nose out of it, i've told everybody the only way to fix it is the CD like the screen suggests. on our way back to Cincy Mom got me tacos :) and then i made a necklace for Halloween and went to life group, even though i should probably have started my chem hw and studying for my math test (i still should be) but anyway i like spending time w/ Scotty and the gang. Janie's on fall break this week (sorta) so she's got Monday and Tuesday off but has 2 tests and a speech when she gets back so not much of a break but still its a lil time off. i have two tests on Friday that i need to begin studying for which sucks cuz this weeks homecoming and the last thing i want to think about Friday is bio & chem but it must be done. and that brings us to now when i have to walk back to my dorm at 10:30 pm...to steal a quote from last year "Micah wouldn't be happy!" lol w/e

Subject

I had a thought the other day, i don't remember the subject or even what day i was thinking it but it would have made a really good blog. Kinda makes me sad but i guess it wasn't really that important, although i did tell myself i wasn't going to forget it. so let's go to a different subject.
Australia, i know i've mentioned it before but i went and talked to the UC International Studies office (which is not the one by the alumni center, just FYI) and i got a lot of info. It's a good thing im going home this weekend i can't wait to tell mi madre all about the programs and then today was their fair so i got some more info and im leaning more toward a diff. program than i was before, my biggest factor is going to be my GPA (of course it always is), but im shooting for at least a 3.2 this quarter and a 3.5-3.7 by the end of the year. So anyway im super excited to start getting this setup. But i really need to focus on my math test on Monday and bio AND chem next Friday. Who schedules a test the day homecoming festivities start my bio and chem profs thats who. im worried about chem cuz i still dont quite understand all the math but maybe Victoria can help me with that and im worried about bio just because i think i do so well and then i never do but i should be OK...i hope.