Bored so why not blog?!?

So I've decided to forget about each previous day and start every day thinking only about that day and what lays ahead. With that in mind a quick not on the past, yesterday despite being Monday was actually a relatively good day. Today has been pretty good, too. I had class and then I ate lunch with Jessica, Janie's roommate from last year, i like her; well her and a guy from her calculus class, he was cute think he said his name was Brett. Anyway so lunch was good and my 3 classes' hw from yesterday i got done in about 2 hours so now im free for the rest of the day and haven't the slightest clue what to do. There's an SI session at 4:30 for bio but i feel like so far i'm in a good place, it's chem i'm a confused by but once i get a book im sure it'll make more sense. there's a soccer game tomorrow, along w/ Cru, and biology club, don't know how much i'll do but could be helpful to check out bio club.
One thing i really want to do right now is sit down and have a chat with j or d or even s about some stuff that's running through my head. Actually i should probably talk to the person it involves but i don't want to seem like I'm dredging up the past. I know that it would be helpful to just get someone else's opinion. But everyone just seems so busy, that is everyone who already knows about the situation seems so busy. What i need is a new situation, one that doesn't involve the people from last year. Someone new to focus on, someone that isn't afraid of and is ready for a relationship. But as I've told my bff that is not my focus...that can't be my focus, not with school and finding a job.
 So anyway I think i'm done thinking for now, this killed about 30 minutes yay!!

School

So classes have started and as of about 2 hours ago i was finished w/ my first week. I find it interesting how inconvenient it is to not have a computer at my disposal 24/7 mostly to do my homework but also to stay in contact with my friends. I do however think that's what was keeping me up during the summer because since i've gotten to school i haven't had a problem sleeping, but i've also been pretty busy. up and about a lot. hanging w/ the RallyCats at games and seeing friends from Cru. Making new friends of old acquaintances that some of my old friends may not be so fond of. Meeting certain people and being severely confused how people's tastes change although i know mine have too over time, but i mean DANG!! dude is HOT, while i thinking incredibly highly of the other guy, cant help but be attracted to the dude. Meeting new people and not focusing on past relationships/friendships w/e it was we had. Sure, there are still days when i want nothing more than to have someone to lean against and hold me but i'm an Owens and as my niece can show you we're fighters and i know one day i'll find that guy, as for now tho i've got my friends and their boyfriends LOL!! they're all great guys but they're better w/ their girlfriends than they'd ever be w/ me, they are to much like brothers to me for that to ever happen. Sometimes younger brothers, but most of the time older brothers (which is a good thing since they're all older than me). Back to school, it's different but not like i thought, the people that went to Traverse aren't as clique-y as i thought they'd be  and it's been great to see everyone again, some more than others but i'm me, i dont get along w/ everyone but im trying my best. I love how close i've gotten to some people this summer, cuz now it seems like we could actually have a conversation w/o someone else around. the one thing i'm hating the most, besides my comp. & the lady from Kroger not calling, is almost everyone living off campus, it makes it harder to hang w/ people especially on the weekends guess that's why i have hw and sporting events. Now if i could find a job i'd be set. i think that's about all for now. Really happy to see 'T' again, gonna miss her, well her and the rest of the seniors, never realized how many of my friends graduate this year gonna be a sad when they all leave. a repeat of my sophomore year of high school.
tonight is the first of what i am hoping is very few conflicts between the RallyCats and Cru. Volleyball game or movie night,  think i'll go with the movie night, movie sounds like just the right thing after a night full of yelling for the Bearcats. i run into the same problem next wed.  a men's soccer game starts an hour before cru, what a world, what a world!!

Crap!!

im not sure if it's the weather, the inconvenience of walking to the library for a computer, finding out things i need for class last minute, or what but im just in a really crappy mood, i kinda just want to go home and forget about school BUT good news is Micah comes home tonight and Janie will be really happy, im not sure why that's good news for me but im happy for them all the same. Had dinner with Janie and her housemates last night, well 2 of her housemates. I had a lot of fun hanging out with them but idk what it was when i woke up this morning i was just in a bad mood. I think it's a combination of things, included amongst is the fact that almost everyone i know lives off campus now and those that do live on campus im not that close to or i feel like they'd rather keep their distance. It's sad to say but im really not happy here nor was i at home. However in the back of my mind i know its really just the mood im in. i blame most of my mood on the weather. i have enjoyed the last week, its been hot and cold but always fairly nice, not like the crap-tastic rain we are currently experiencing. if i could get out and enjoy some sunshine, get the lady at Kroger to call me back, fix my computer and be ready for classes (lessons as Andy V. would call them) on Wed. life would be so much better. Of course there are some other things i would like that would make life better as well but those aren't as needed in the next week as the aforementioned are.

Year #2

Well today (technically) is the eve of my return to Cincy and while I'm excited, I'm also anxious. It feels like Cincy is going on about it's day to day life while I'm up here frozen in time. I think the last of my friends moved back down there last week and it'll be weird them having spent so much time together and then me trying to jump into the mix. I guess I kinda know how Janie must have felt this past spring but she got to visit every now and then but still. I know they're good people and they'd never intentionally isolate me and I'm sure there's a few that will be excited to see me, i mean i don't know anyone who will be upset to see me, lol, but from things that have been said and done i know some missed me more than others. Anyway, year 2 will be different than 1 in many ways, I AM going to focus on school more and a job is already in the line up (whether it's a paying job or not is yet to be determined). I know last year I was nervous about leaving Shiloh & Britt and i am this year too but fro completely different reasons. Last year i was nervous because they're the best friends i have, this year I'm nervous cuz Shiloh hurt his foot and its a huge sign that he's getting older and his body isnt springing back as well. Now some of u might be wondering why i care SO much about my dog, well  let me put it this way, some people tear up or get a catch in their throat at the thought of losing a grandparent, well i lost both of my grandfathers in high school and i didn't cry but the mere thought of Shiloh...you know well that makes me tear up. Animals have just always meant more to me; that and i never really knew either of my grandfathers, we weren't close, blame it on growing up in a different state. As for Britt well i feel like she needs me and by going back to school i won be as accessible to help her, I've always helped her. But i did say i was excited too. Room/suite -mates this year, friends from the start, a different house to visit everyday of the week...if they'd let me lol. I just feel like this is gonna be a good year. Yep, I can see this being a GREAT year, but i don't have any expectations, haha.

Jobs

Well i never thought i'd be in a situation like this. I have a dilemma...well it's not a dilemma yet, here's the problem, u remember the volunteer job i told u about at the vet clinic, well that's about a 95% guaranteed position but its volunteer so i wouldn't be making any money, however Kroger called yesterday and offered me an interview when i get back down to Cincy, and i know an interview isn't a job 

BUT lets say i get the job, do i take it and end up bagging groceries for a paycheck 
 OR do i turn it down for a chance to work at a vet clinic with no paycheck but a more career-suited kind of experience? I don't think i can do/handle both and im not really going to try cuz i need to focus on school. 

I'm going to the interview, that much i know but i told the doc id volunteer first, i just dont know what i should do if i get both, i know the money is what i need but i also know id hate bagging groceries, which is what the interview is for. I was thinking id go talk to the vet and maybe see if i could just volunteer during the weekends and then maybe only work at Kroger during the week. 

My problem with that is i really need to get better grades this quarter, especially with 4 of my 5 classes being academic classes, im not worried about math but i need a 'B' or better in both bio and chem.

SO do i go for the money or for the experience?

Moms

They do so very much for us (or they are supposed to). They are how we get into this world and where most of our nutrition comes from for quite sometime. As a woman (and yes i do consider myself a woman) i have looked to my mom for guidance and instruction on how to do most everything I know how to do apart from playing the drums, school work, and my way with animals. People say I look a lot like my dad but most would also agree i'm a lot like my mom, personality wise. I think that's why i don't argue as much when we disagree, because i can see where she's coming from. Either that or it's my ability to see both sides of every situation and that i also learned on my own (peer mediation). However, we do argue, i get that i'm her baby (the youngest) and that means that she hates that im growing up and wanting to do things like go to the Tennessee game and to Australia but if she doesn't let me go to the game how is she ever supposed to know if i can take care of myself in Australia, besides school? I'm grateful that she even let me go to Cincinnati, my first choice was Denver, Colorado but she said no way to that one, so i tried a lil' closer to home and Cincy holds enough rural-ality (which i realize isn't a word, neither is my next -ality word) to keep me from becoming home sick for the cornfields i've know for the past 9 year and suburban-ality to give me something new and exciting in my life. BUT the whole point of this blog is my Mother, mom, mama, lady!! she went to Georgia for a week to visit my brother, sister-in-law, and meet my niece, Baby B(Brookelyn) and im not saying im bawling my eyes or going crazy cuz i miss her (im really not) I'm just saying I'm 19 years old and this is the FIRST time i've ever spent an entire week at home with just my sisters and my dad. It's weird and it's not like i even really realize she's not here until about 6 when she should be home from work. If any of you knew much about me, you'd know if my mom was involved in something I was too and vise versa. In pre-k & kindergarten she was a teacher's aide w/ my pre-k class and then another class, when i started Kindergarten. Then when i was old enough to start Girl Scouts (1st grade) she got involved then too. Keep in mind I have 3 older siblings, 2 of which are sisters and were in scouts too, but she didn't really get involved 'til i joined. She helped out with ROTC/drill team when my brother & sister were in it but mainly cuz my dad was interested in helping out. then in 8th grade when i joined marching band she got involved again. It should be noted that my one sister is only a year older than i am (18 months) and she joined marching band her 8th grade year too, but again she didn't get involved 'til i joined. My mom and I are like two peas in a pod. We bake together, she listens to me, and i know if there were ever anything i needed to tell her i could (that goes for both my parents but its easier to tell her and have her tell him).Yes, we still fight, i mean i'm a teenager & i want to become more independent and she's my mom, she still see the 3 year-old who used to follow her everywhere, who needed her for everything. I know in time things will change but sometimes i wish i were that 3 year-old and other times i wish she'd realize i'll be 20 in exactly 8 months (some odd hours, today's my 1/3 birthday).