The Day After

I 've done a lot of thinking in the last 14 hours (one of those hours was on a test) and I've come up with two things. I can act like nothing ever happened and 1)go on just being friends with him or 2) try to cut him out of my life, act like he was never/is not now important to me. While the second one would be easier for me to deal with the whole thing, it would be nearly impossible to actually do seeing as how practically our entire college circle of friends involves the same group of people and i couldn't give up those people just to avoid him. So I need to just suck it up and act like nothing ever happened but I don't know how realistic that is either. I told him I was okay with just being friends but truth is I'm not sure I can handle seeing him and not breaking down. Heck, i about burst into tears just thinking about last night. I know my friends are going to say this is God's way of telling me to be patient that there is someone out there perfect for me but I can't stand being alone. I don't think people realize how hard it is for me to be around practically strangers most of the time and have none of my friends on campus. As much as i like my alone time, I crave the attention of my friends and I'd like nothing better than to just spend the weekends hanging w/ them or being able to go back to my dorm/house/place of dwelling and see a friendly face that I know I can talk to and have them know the people I'm talking about and the situations. But back to my point, I just need to forget about last night...move on and start listening harder. BUT it'd be easier if a guy would just say he liked me and wanted to give us a chance/try, I've seen it happen so it's not impossible and I don't think it's unrealistic to ask for.
One last thought on last night; what made it even harder than him saying the same thing as the other guy or even that i like him so much, was that he was sooooo nice about it and kept trying to apologize for it, and it really didn't help that i pretty much think the world of him, is it sad that him rejecting me doesn't change my view of him?