Christmas Eve and I'm still not quite in the mood; something feels different, it doesn't feel like it's Christmas time. It may be the lack of snow or maybe it's the fact that my mom works from 8-5:30 so she hasn't been home much and we haven't been baking like crazy. It could be that I feel so alone and not nearly as loved, don't get me wrong i really DO love my niece but it is starting to get hard. They are MY mommy and daddy, I'm the baby. :(
But that's not it entirely, it's not even entirely that Jason's here and therefore also distracting them. And it's definitely not that I wasn't here to help decorate because I wasn't last year either. I think it's mostly that everyone else seems to be going on with their normal routines while I sit here hour after hour, day after day. I'm starting to feel like I'm visiting rather than having come home. Sure, mom and I still made some cookies and V is always the same when I'm home but something is different. I don't know what and I can't wait for Indy and school.
Speaking of Indy, certain people are really starting to ignore me. Talk about annoying qualities of an organization. It was bad enough at Fall-get-away where nothing happened at the time the schedule said it would but now it seems like rather than planning things out in a timely manner, people are just like figure it out for yourselves or oh I'll get to it soon. Oh you need a ride there, well let me wait until a week before to help you with that when your parents can no longer take the day off work if we can't find a ride. Some people I swear, their personalities annoy me. I mean yeah no one want to work when they could be on Facebook or Skype chatting with "studs" (I use that word loosely) but seriously get things done and then you can do what you want. But like I said before I'm going to try to make Indy better than last year's fall-get-away so that starts with not stressing about the details but I should probably get some food before I go...there are a lot of things I should do before I go.
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