So i've been a good girl pretty much my entire life. I mean yeah there were times i didn't want to do the dishes or i wasn't "doing my best" (how would they know), and even times where i just flat out did the opposite of what the authority figure told me. But for the most part im responsible, i do what im told w/o much fuss, and i strive for good grades & try my best. I know it has to be hard on my mom seeing her youngest become an independent an adult and that's why she's hanging on so tight. I get it im her baby and if im an adult where's that leave her? but honestly i get more and more sick of being told what to do and when to do it every day. Im clinging to my countdown, 45 days, and i'll be back at school where i dont have to ask if i can go w/ my friends and i can be out all night w/o repercussions. I mean there are still people down there that care about me and kinda keep tabs on me but its not to the point that i just want to leave. I LOVE my parents, they're good people and they mean well but sometimes its just suffocating. Compared to some of my friends parents are way worse but some are also better. Sometimes i wonder what itd be like to be my best friend's sister but i know that id miss my oldest sister and my brother and definitely my puppy. (yeah i know i wouldn't if i was born into their family, w/e)
Point is if my second older sister is in a good mood (or better yet not around) then i have a good life. Sure there are things i've had to go w/o but those are luxuries, like a horse, some of the toys (when i was little) and clothes (now) i wanted. But i've got a puppy who i couldn't love any more than i already do, my own room, a roof over my head in a decent neighborhood, food in my belly, and clothes on my back, a few luxuries like a computer and a tv for my dorm. Sure, i never got the pony/horse i wanted or even the hamster. I don't live on a farm and my extended family has some serious problems. BUT i have a good life.
My friends always seem to come to me for relationship advice and their other life problems. I've never kissed anyone and never had a boyfriend. I have terrible time taking tests and it scares the crap out of me that that is what (if anything) is going to keep me out of vet school. I have 7 years of school left (supposing i make it into vet school) unlike most of my friends who have 3 or 4. I can't get a job and am longing to go to Australia next year. My dad lost his job and doesn't seem to have found another. Im not as strong in my beliefs as i appear to be but im working on it. BUT i have a good life.
U ask how can i have a good life w/ all that going on, well i don't live in poverty, i haven't been sold as a slave into the sex trade. I don't live in a third world country and dont have to worry about being persecuted for any of my beliefs. I don't go to bed hungry and my shoes aren't to small or uncomfortable (when i wear shoes) or the only pair ive ever owned. I dont have a life threatening disease or any disease for that matter. I don't go to bed wondering if i'll wake up and my parents will be dead or arrested.
SO id say I HAVE A GOOD LIFE!! :) happy for my blessings not worrying about all the "bad" in my life
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