I wanna talk about...storms

They terrify and mystify me all at the same time, a light shower on a hot summer's day, fine, it's refreshing even needed and appreciated when u live in the corn-belt, but the crazy storm going on right now and the insane downpours Cincy has, well they freak me out. There should never be that much rain falling from the sky at one time and the wind, its insane. There were a few times this past year where i swore i could feel Calhoun swaying from the wind. The wind is what bugs me the most at school 7 stories up, but at home where I'm only 2 stories up, its the lightning, my window is 2'7" across and 3'2" tall that may not seem very big but for a window it is. It let's in a LOT of light, from the moon to the street lamp to...lightning. I have a semi-blackout curtain on my window to keep out the light from the street lamp. You know those little kids who can't sleep w/o a night light well I am and was the opposite, i like my room pitch black. I put my computer under my bed so i cant see the charging light, at school i put it in my drawer. I'm dead serious i hate light while im trying to sleep. So its not really a fear of lightning but more of an annoyance with it. Now my mom would be mad or call me crazy if she knew i were on my computer in the middle of a storm but what can i do i can't sleep and nothing ive tried has helped. I love the sound of the rain hitting the roof and the thunder i can deal with...i marched bass drum for two years, but at night it's supposed to be dark, end of sentence. I put my bed against my wardrobe so i couldn't see the light in the hall last year in Calhoun. I'm dead serious about this, and i think that's why lightning bugs me so much, cuz i can see it through my curtain. :(