IF

If is a small word in comparison to almost all other words, miniscule even in comparison to antidisestablishmentarianism (opposition to the withdrawal of state support or recognition from an established church) but my point, for it being such a small word, it holds an awful lot of power over people.

• If i hadn't gotten mad
• If i'd studied harder
• If i was prettier, smarter, more skilled, more likeable
• If i'd only told someone
• If we hadn't lost
• If everyone knew
• IF, If, if...

Thing is until the invention of the time machine we'll never know what would have happened IF we'd done things differently, so we have to start living in the present and for the future. The past is the past there's nothing anyone can do to change it. I'm not saying I'm perfect and that there aren't things I'd give almost anything to change or that sometimes i don't say, wonder, or even dream 'what IF'. I'm working on it though, I'm trying to live my life by rolling with the punches and just going with the flow. So what my cousin never came to play LIFE with me and I'll get over the fact that I'm slowly losing one of my best friends, IF I'm honest with myself I realize she really wasn't that great of a friend anyway. I could do something and she'd be mad at me for days, weeks even, but she could do the same thing and I'd let it go. And almost anything in my life that relates to her has gotten me in trouble or caused me anger or grief, so why am I friends with her? Sorry didn't mean for this to be one of those blogs, so back to my point; I think the world be a lot less stressful place IF everyone didn't focus so much on the past. Sure, learn from it but then move on, don't dwell on it. 

As my boy Garth Brooks would say:
Three thirty in the morning,
Not a soul in sight,
The city's looking like a ghost town
On a moonlit summer night.