My Boy

This is probably way too sensitive to put online but hey that's never stopped me before. He and I slept together last night (slept as in actually slept, no sex). To some people that see that as innocent and as nothing's wrong with that but i don't know it's just bugging me because a month ago he was still sayin' we were just friends and now all this close stuff is happening. I think he's starting to regret not giving us a try in the beginning although when i asked he said he wouldn't do anything differently, so maybe not but he's pretty good at saying one thing and acting differently. i hate how he's waited so long and i really don't want to leave him but i want to see my family sooo bad. I am, however, very proud of myself for following his lead and not pushing it like i've done before, we had our moments of disagreement and misunderstanding but he's really one of the best guys i've ever met and it's little things that have caused the problems. All in all i could not be happier at the moment, so long as i don't think about leaving. I teared up 3x last night while with him when i thought about leaving.