15

The 15th has always kind of been our day. July 15th is the day we met. August 15th was the day i spent 3 hours playing with his hair, the first time we were really close; the 15th of September was the day we went to the harp and he and Betsy karaoke-ed; the 15th of October is an exception because he was upset about the Harbour Cruise thing;and the 15th of November is the last full day we spent together. So yeah, not that he noticed but it's always been special. And in Australia today is the 16 which makes it 1 month since I left, since we've seen each other, and since we kissed. Sure I've stopped crying myself to sleep and I've stopped randomly breaking down but that doesn't mean this isn't still hard. I miss him like crazy and sometimes it seems like he misses me too. But I don't know exactly what it is we're doing or even what we are. By that I mean I fon't know if we're trying to stay close so that when I get back over there it's like I never left, so we can pick up where we left off or if we're just keeping our friendship up like any friends would. I don't even know if friends is what we are or if we're more. I'm not the kind of person to kiss a male friend and expect us to stay just friends, not that I've ever done it before but to me we're more than friends had been for a while before I left. I don't know what we are and I can't ask because I told him so many times I didn't need a label and I still don't NEED one, I'm just curious. I mean we wouldn't even have to talk about it, he could just put it on Facebook and that would be as good as him asking me. That doesn't apply to a marriage proposal but to be his gf, yeah that would be good enough.