Second, today (yesterday) i realized i have some great friends and some people who would really like to be my friend. What I mean by that is some time's i think my "best friends'" boyfriends are trying harder to be my friend than some of my "best" friends. Hence the quotation marks around best.
I also sometimes wonder if B and i have only been best friends for all this time because it's convenient to have ur best friend live so close, then there are days like today (yesterday) and I remember y she truly is my very best friend. Her boyfriend, K, and I had a nice lil chat last night. He wants to be in good standing w/ her friends and family, let's just leave it at that cuz the rest of that sentence is not mine to share. But if u saw him and never got to know him u would never guess his personality. He's like a coconut, he's rough on the outside but i suspect deep down he's just a big softie, especially when it comes to B.
When it comes to S, she is a good friend too and she's smart which can be useful not that that is the only reason why im friends w/ her. I go to S w/ my probs (well her and J but we'll get to her later) as well as she AND her boyfriend, D, come to me. It's nice to have people who want to know what i have to say. and they seem like they'd be great together once they get those fixed.
Now to J&M; they have a relationship like no one I've ever met, they were made for each other and I've said that from the very beginning and while J hasn't always had the best relationships and M well, really hasn't had any from my understanding, u'd think they'd been together for years rather than 7ish months, i love them. but don't misunderstand me they have their problems too but the probs are normally over stupid stuff like who's paying and if its over bigger stuff they talk to each other about it, which i find is a good way to solve things.
Internal communication and external help are both good ways to solve problems. Thing i also love about J is she's always there for me, no matter how many times im say im not going to talk about something or someone she doesn't seem to mind letting me and i know she can draw from her own experience and thats why i try my best to listen to her and y i go to her.
I don't mind helping my friends some times but other times i wish they'd think about what could possibly be going on in my life and maybe try to solve it themselves but that is where praying for patience comes into the picture for me cuz that is my biggest struggle with things.
Back to friends being great, remember how i said no one ever bother's to get in their cars and come see me well i was wrong a very dear friend of mine is trying to find the time to come see me, he's a great guy. STOP, i know what ur thinking and NO it's not like that, he's more of an older brother than any kind of romantic interest and he has a gf. and while yes at first i'll admit i thought i might have had feelings for him but i don't see him that way anymore haven't since like november. Im not sure if i like his gf or not yet but im still getting to know her, so we'll see. she seems nice and she seems to understand that he and i are just friends, it's a weird friendship but a friendship is what it is none the less. I don't know what ill do my junior year w/o out all the friends im making, i mean yeah sure some of them will still be around but many of them will be graduating this coming year, him being one of them. and yeah there's the little fact that i don't plan on being here that fall (Australia fall 2012 or bust) but still.
Anyway im kinda aching all over so i think im gonna try to head to bed early tonight and yes i do consider 1:20 am early, earlier than 4am. lol Insomnia is a pain.
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| I don't condone the use of guns for anything especially for sport but if he wants to go shoot and be shot at by someone w/ an airsoft gun, who am i to stop him? |
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