Realizations

You ever have something just hit you, like, wow! I can't believe this never occurred to me before? Yeah, well, that happened to me last night. On one hand, I'd like to say it's been so incredibly hard being away from my best friend that I don't know how I'll go 4 months straight without seeing her but it really hasn't been. Yes, every now and then I miss her like crazy but I've made new friends and while none of them could ever come anywhere near close to my very best friend, a few of them are pretty high up there. It hit me though last night, I won't have any of them down there. I will have no support system and while it will be great to get to be around an animal(s) every day, it will be difficult not getting to see any of my friends. I never thought in such a short time (like two years) that I would have such a strong connection with so many people. It's going to be hard enough losing some of them to graduation but at least if I were staying here I'd have a chance at seeing them at least a few times next fall. J went home early last year so I didn't get to spend spring with her but she could still come visit every now and then. This will be unlike anything I've ever done, different even from college because at least while I'm here I'm only an hour from home. I could go home if and when I had to, I can't do that over there. Don't get me wrong, I realize this is the chance of a lifetime and I'm so very thankful to my super supportive parents and friends but at the same time that doesn't mean I'm not allowed to have reservations. I'm not super close with a lot of people, it's just not in my nature to be, so those that I am close with mean a ton to me. It's not even just that I won't be able to hang out with them or get to see them, i will also be 14 hours ahead of everyone in Ohio so it's not even likely that we'll be online at the same time. Maybe if I get on before I head out in the morning and they're on around dinner time or before i go to bed and they're getting up for class... it's going to be difficult is my point. I'm going to give it a shot but it's not going to be easy.